It is fall once again~I do love fall but it brings with it all of the holidays that parents who have lost a child dread. We once again wonder what they would be like if they were still with us. What would we be thinking of buying for them for a Chrsitmas gift? My heart aches for all the parents who are just beginning down the road of grief and pain that comes with losing a child. We have had 3 requests just this week for help with services. I know that the requests will keep coming, and am thankful that we are here to receive them, but I wish this didn't happen, I wish children didn't die or get sick, that we would never have to say good bye. Wishes~even though they are unrealistic I can't help but wish for it. Someday in heaven it will be this way, everyone will be healthy and happy and together again. Patience has never really been one of my strengths and waiting for it is hard. All I can do is be there for other parents who are struggling too. Let them know they are not alone. I can't ease their pain, I don't know that anything ever will. It always hurts, but at least I know that he is up there running, singing, laughing, and sitting on Jesus lap. Oh sweet boy, I miss you so very much. I would trade places with you in an instant but that would be selfish, wouldn't it? To take away from you the most beautiful thing~ I can't even imagine it! I can't wait to be there with you though! After my work here is done. I will be RUNNING to those golden gates to hug you again. I hope you will know me, and run to me as well.
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